haysh . evritin has cum tuh e end nw . ol e werds ,, kisses ,, e love we mke r jush tuh cmfort me . sobss . why dear why .. even eu r cnfused wit eur ownself why mus eu do tysh tuh me .. i feel lyk im jush hayshh . i knw if ppl kip sayin if i nik cm passing2 ,, bt i hve maself respect tho . eu give me hope & strength .. eu told me if eu love me tuhh .. eu told me if ders a chance eu wanna patch tings up .. eu told me if im nort ss .. eu told me if i nik tk bertepuk sbelah tgn .. eu treat me jush lyk e past .. bt nw its ol gone . sobs . why ive tuh go thru ol tysh alone . its ol act a false hope & i shall put a fake smile tuh eu .. cus i RESPECT eur decision dear . eu wanted us tuh b frens .. fine ,, i try tuh accept it .. lyk i sae mayb tysh is e 'balasan fer me .. wat ive done tuh eu .. bt tynk bck dear .. ol e heartaches bout eu n otha gerls is styl der .. i left eu ,, cus im hurt .. & i tauu silap i ,, i tk perlu uat eu rase sunyi .. bt dear ,, tats hw i feel .. i feel soo lonely wen eu found yana .. bt ma loneliness eu nvr care less bout it . sobss . i feel e ache soo much til i started bhavin soo ego . i knw its ma fault .. bt wen im wit ayiid nor jack i styl prove tuh em if i styl nyds eu . bt eu thot i left eu ol alone & nvr tynks of eu .. eu r wrong in judging me . sobss . im dissappointed wit eu . dey knw if i styl cun gt over eu .. den tat mondae . i cun hide anitin nimore & i left jack .. nort only cus of eu bt its cus of hr att tuhh . den we myt bck . i was soo HAPPY . no one understnd hw i feel at tat moment .. & we myt again tat tues .. bt tuh pun eu lyn i after keka aleq . hw wil i feel ? sobss . i selak & i ton wit eu at alynn hse . we mke love . i cried .. cus why .. cus i myshh e old us alot . sobss . & i rili love eu . after tat dae we olmost spend e whole wk togetha ,, & i feel soo secure .. i feel as if lyk i jush wanted tuh b by eur side everi min ,, bt ma hopes r gone .. tat sat ,, everitin brks ma hart .. i am jealous . saket aty eu .. saket aty .. bt i knw i shudnt hve tuh .. ive no rights . hayshh . & nw eu r letting everitin go .. eu wanna enjoy life . eu r enjoying it dear ,, bt nort me .. eu cnn mve on nw .. bt nort me . sobss . lau dari ulu i lei move on i tkkn caryk eu aleq . bt its okey ,, i respect eu .. i cun force eu tuh love me nor hve a rel wit me .. cus tuh sumerh tkkn jdy keikhlasan dari aty eu .. soo wats fer ?! sobs . i wil wait fer eu as long as hw deep ma love fer eu is . i nvr regretted knwin eu .. 090806 . i nvr regreted evritin thru out 190806 .. even hw hard we've gone thru . sobss . i will wait fer eu .. ily . sobss . (padan mukerh ko dian.) *haish! see...u did dat to her , jack n ayid kan...nw it bounces back to u!* sobss !! & nw eu r bein aloofness )):