aku YANTI. (:

2008-07-16T23:39:00.002+08:00

will update tis blog SOON(:

2008-07-03T15:29:00.002+08:00

okayy im suppose tuh b hme todae tuh tke ma tings.. bt yaar. we woke up late & dy saes jush go tmr as she's gg tuh tke hr tings at fajar.. yeaps. dearie is mad todae. *rolling eyes* hahaha! okayy dearies cooking ryte nw, & im here blogging ahaha. she seems nt in e md.. hehs. okayy im owt of werds.. update again later okayy. mwaahhh!

2008-07-02T17:44:00.003+08:00

holaa!! yeahh ive jush change ma layout.. i knw its kind of childish HAHA. bt, i jush lovee kiuut stuff okayy. ehehs. OKAYY, recently ive been at dearie's cribs.. since last thurs.

haha daa tkar address laa. sheesh nahh joking. i jush donoe..

hahaha. wil b bck hme on thurs tuh tke ma tings.. yepp. sat mayb gg 'mak sue' pit.

OHH MY~ its dy gurlfy.. i mean dy's fwen.. & i swear im nt use tuh it OKAYY.

pfft. huhuhu how?? & i swear im nt sure watt tuh wear okayy! hmphff. okayy.. im here updatin e blog.. while dy's watching G&G.. haha. she's started wearing sportsbra ok! hehehe. kiutt kn??

hehs. since tat sundae she hd nssl.. til todae she wore e sportsbra.. haas. nk jady andro laa.

hehs. coooL~

okayy yest nite was a bad bad dae fer dearie & me.. haishh. hd a fight jush cus of ciggy.. pfft. i acc bby tuh buy ciggy.. den i light e ciggy fer hr.. i dun mean anitin.. n ma mouth smell ciggy & dy caught it.. its nt tat i wann hide it frm hr.. jush tat im afraid if she tinks tat i din/nvr quit smoking yet.. haish. everitin went wrong yest.. & yaar i did stuuupid tings.. im SORRY dy. im jush hurt by watt eu've let owt yest.. it rili hurts me.. haishh. afterol im sorry its ma fault.. i started it first.. i started shoutin at eu.. haishh. sorry.. i love you okayy. im styl hurt wat eu've said yest.. i masi teringt ingtkn kate kate eu umerh.. sorry. OKAYY i betta stop here.. sii ecal nik sebok nk chat wit dearie.. durh. cm matae. toodles~ mwaaah!

2008-06-25T01:37:00.002+08:00

*sobbing* nw im cryin ol alone. sobs. its ol started jush cus of a small ting, bt i mke it worst. sobs. & nw, she send me a txt saying "cume i tknk syg eu lebih dari skg.. im sorie.. blablablabla.. dun worrie i tkd pompan laen"

sobss. i sedar i phm i ngerti lau perit untk eu luperhkn sal ulu.. sobs. eu tol2 uat i rase jahat sgt sgt. sobs. i tk otf nan sesaperh pun bt eu pkir gituu.. padahal i nan update blog bab i tk tau nan saperh i nk luahkn sobs. i tol2 rase diri i nik jijik n eu kyp on saying tuh melau i nanak cont tros terang nan eu nkmo tkot umehr.. aperh maksod eu.. dari mule patch.. eu yg asyik ckp gituu.. i phm lauu eu tkot tapy aty i??.. i tkot i pendam pat diri sendiri bab i tau eu tkkn cayerh lau skg i tol2 sygkn eu n i tol2 regret sal ulu sobs.. lgy eu ckp nan i nik sumerh.. tkd org tauu cmnerh raes tkot nyehr i kehilangn eu.. i yg tkot dy.. styl eu cnn sae tuh me hve fun tonite sobs. im typing here crying.. while eu online at msn.. sobs.. i tk pena slhkn eu.. aperh i uat skg sumerh nyehr i nk jage rel kiterh tpy cara eu pkr uat i rase i tk appreciate eu.. sobss. dyy...

2008-06-22T21:22:00.002+08:00

dyy,, hope eu cnn acc me early tmr mng.. sobs. if eu cnn.. myt/wait fer me under ma void deck okayy.. i will kuar frm nenek hse arnd 9.. I WILL MKE SURE I REACH HME BY 10, 1015.. if eu cnn mke it.. cum ealier.. kayy.. i nyd eur acc.. sobs.. imy dy.. txt me asap tonite.. i wil wait fer eur txt.. n i wil try tuh ply using nenek hp.. JUSH WAIT FER MA REPLY OKAYY.. thank eu dy.. i rili hope eu cnn wake up a bit ealier tuh acc me at hme tmr b4 we go town.. eu ciap2 skali lurh untk p town kayy.. bt if eu cun acc me.. den nvm.. i understnd its hard fer eu.. sigh. anitin cnfirm wit me tonite. ILY SHAYANGG ACENN. IMY.- MSG FER BACEN.

2008-06-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

okayy. nutink much tuh update. its ma bdae e past few daes.. && dyy mkes it soo wonderful.. wit e cakes & e candles.. she kysh me on ma forehead.. mama, bby kysh me tuhh. aww. dey r jush lyk ma own fam.. i love em okayy. okayy tues midnite celeb wit em.. & e nxt dae b4 gg tuh town went tuh myt mama outside poly.. pity her.. kena minyak panas.. okayy den mama went bck wit maklong, while me, bby n dyy went tuh town.. eat at far east & headed tuh dhoby tuh catch a muvee bt we end up watching it at amk hub. hehe. we watch e sex and city show. it was great haha bt eeww disgusted. yaar its sex. gatalkn sumerh. ehehs. den after e show we went bck tuh dyy cribs. & yaar sleep. im missing ma ddy mex rite nw lurh.. waitin fer hr tuh top up hr fone, & gg tuh col hr later.. ILY dy.. & tuh ol whu wish me happy bdae THANKS. loved'boyot(:

2008-05-31T17:56:00.001+08:00

pfft. i wann ma ddy mex.. huhuhu. euu.. i nk tag nan eu & othas.. HMPFF! mrh nik.. i nk eu.. ole nanges seii.. pfft.

2008-05-23T15:56:00.002+08:00

AKU SHAYANGG DUMEX KUU .. heee~ even we hve nort patch tings up i styl regard tat im att yaaa ATTACHED cus i feel soo secured wen im wit HER .. hehehe .. noor halijah bte md noor . OKAYY ppl ? . imyshhyou lurh shayangg yot .. !! huhuhu nvm tmr we shall myt up .. p esp eys ?? .. pfft . nk kai aperh eys ..
hhm .. iloveher soo muach .. ilove ma noor halijah soo muach .. hehs . kayy i donoe wat tuh update bt i jush wanna sae tat ILOVEYOU LOTS SHAYANGG ACENN ! MUARCKSS !

2008-05-22T15:29:00.003+08:00

eu dun hve tuh sae tat i mke a big mistake patah aleq nan eu .. sobss !! i kecewa nan eu .. eu ckp gituu .. i sygkn eu .. sobss tis is watt eu tink .. i shudnt hve let out ma feelings tuh eu .. ITS OL MA FAULT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-22T13:14:00.006+08:00

e wae eu tag at her blog .. sobs .. it makes me feel different . i feel sorry . i feel lyke eu bahasekn i pun aderh .. i feel lyk eu nan i skg pun jus tuh puaskn aty i .. smpai kiter tol2 daa brk ler daa patch ,, den eu change tuh pl eu gg tuh b wit hr .. i noe eu wanted tuh b wit hr .. why wait fer nxt yr .. b pl nw ,, i trime .. n im happy if eu wit hr .. nt lyk tis .. im sorry fer evevritin its been ol ma faults ppl ol around lyk tis . sobss . eu sae kwn lagyk kekal .. yaa its true bt haishh . try putting eurself in ma shoe ..wat wil eu feel & tink bout ol tis .. sobss . tkecre . sobss . i aket aty .. cm eu daa plan blakang i nxt yr eu nk p nan keka . bt in ma thots i tink negly bout eu .. eu mke me tink tat eu wanted tuh b wit keka act ol tis while bt cus of me .. cinta korg terhalang n terpakse tunggu fer nxt yr .. tuh aru cinta sejati ?? .. sobss .. im sorry aye ppl . DIAN slalu punca segalanyerh . wen faz read eur tag .. she hr self tink negly .. sobss .. ppl been toking bhind us eu .. lagy lagy i .. sobss . i perhatikn dpan i eu cm tk heran tk heran gituu nan keka .. ler i nanyerh asl tk chat nan keka ke i kena kena kn eu wit keka eu mrh , majok .. bt act bhind me .. lyk e tag ,, eu react a diff wae wit hr .. hw wil i feel ? .. i sygkn eu .. n eu've been der fer me tis mth .. bt wen tings happen tis wae its lyk .. haishh sobss .. jus cus of a tag .. i cried n i tink evevritin negly .. if ma thots is true tell me acenn .. sobss . nik aru eu tag .. watt if bhind me act eu txt wit hr ?? .. skali yg bby comment pon eu yg URGH HAIYO . im sorry . i trust eu . urgh ferget it .. im speechless . ))':

2008-05-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

im bored hurhur ): acenn out wit hr sis & a japan guy .. i donoe whu he is hahaha . pfft . msging wit dearie frm jus nw ,, even skejap skejap ajerh im HAPPY . macehh acenn cus eu hve e heart tuh txt me n letting me knoe eur wherabouts .. haish . i jush mysh our rel .. ): okayy im starting tuh cry again . haishh i shayangg eu lurh acenn .. i myshh eu . i donoe hw tuh let out ma feelings nimore .. i jush love eu soo much . okayy dian daa jady jiwang lurh plak .. haiyoo . hehs . urm i feel sorry fer keka .. bt i cun help it ,, i nid mex tuhh .. im sorry keka .. eu may tink i snatch mex awae frm eu .. bt ,, nehmind onli yun noes why .. i din mean tuh hurt eur feelings .. ol e while eu wit mex i try tuh respect eu ,, eur feelings bt wen it came tuh me .. i dun hve tat respect at ol frm eu n othas .. why cun me n mex grab our love bck if we rili love each otha .. haishh . tat sat wen everione blames mex ,, i cried . im cnfused . its nt hr fault .. its mine .. bt im jush proving hr tat i rili nid hr & i do rili love hr act ol tis yrs .. jush tat im ego fer e past 1mth+ . i love mex , im sorry .. okayy lets change e topic ..
hhm .. last 4daes been sleepin at dearie cribs ..i hd fun tho spending tym wit hr . shayangg ,, do tat face & e cacat walk again hahaha . e one eu did infront of me n kak otek . eu look KIUT dear . hee . tis mondae gonna b eur turn sleeping at ma cribs .. YAYNESS ! tmr's mytin shayangg acenn & watch em play soka mayb at lam soon .. yepp . fri mayb stay at hme kot . cnferm BORING ! hehs . sat shayangg acenn werk ,, i'l b at hme helping mmy fer e kenduri tingy .. sun 'ddy' werk ,, i will b at bibik hse fer e kenduri .. hurhur . wil myshh ma bacen lots ! cpat lurh eu aleq uma .. hehs .. i cun sleep yet . kn best lau i slalu nan eu ajerh .. hahaha . i tauu i tamak .. ehehs . asyik nk nan eu jerh .. i jush cun help it .. i shayangg eu .. i nid eu . huhuhu . okayy i betta stop here . gud nite everione(:
YOT SHAYANGG BACEN OKEHH ! mmuacrks !

2008-05-17T14:33:00.003+08:00

woots . hehs .. been busy tis wk . hahas ukan busy aperh busy ton .. ehehs . bt i hve a great tym spending e whole wk wit shayangg acenn .. yeaps ! mytin hr todae ,, shud b at 4 bt i dun tink soo it wil b at 4 cus nw ACENN LOM ANGON2 lagyk ! hmmpff ! smlm dalurh dierh tido ulu .. she din even hang up e fone leaving me lyk a mad gerl "EUU .. EUU .. EUU .. !!" & pressing e nums .. hahaha . end up bby pick e fone n i ask hr " mex daa tido eyh ?" & she sae "aah" & i rplied "haha daa gk daa" org suro tido lagyk lei uruh org nyanyi lurh .. YIAAKDUSH ! hehs . imy lurh acenn .. angon lurh cpat .. pfft ! mayb gg tuh town (as usual) hahas den gg esp .. e othas gg hrc tonite bt im nort sure bout acenn .. yepp . okehh wil update again tmr or mondae .. nutin much tuh update nw .. (: btw mondae is 19 .. hw i wish it was our 1yr9mths . im sorry ): iloveyou shayangg acenn ! styl , i wil wait fer eu ..

2008-05-09T22:49:00.002+08:00

BIEBIE SERIOUSLY LAA RINDU U . HAIYO .. HAISH TC K . MMUUAAKKZZ !!
09.53PM .
eu din txt me lyk hw eu usually txt me ,, indeed tats watt happen bhind me . i noe ive no rights . bt nvm ferget it . im sorry . its cus of me eu guis seems apart . i will step bck & im happy if eu r haapy . i wanna c eu happy . nort jush infront of me . e love we mke .. e kisses .. i wil nvr ferget it . thanks fer letting me feel eur love n e wae eu pampered me . i jush cn go thru ol tys alone im sorry . bt i wanna eu tuh rmbr if i wil styl wait fer eu & i love you alot . tkecre . && i hope tmr eu r happy by hr side & i hope she's happy . i dun wanna c keka's hurt nimore . i understnd hw she feels .. thanks yun , torn , zhy & kakak fer givin me support . i wil miss eu guis .. especially YOU . dumex . much much more . e pain e heartaches i wil handle it maself .. iloveyou . dian shayangg mex .. tpy dian terpakse gnie untk kebahagian org laen .. dian sanggop . dian trime sumer ni . loved'once eur ney .

e ferst wave of tears came spilling forth . she left me . i'd left her . i'd tuhh . sobss . ma body lurched again as another flood of tears poured out . ive gotten on wit tings . life . everitin . now ol cuming out , coursing thru ma body in painful waves , gushing dwn ma face in a waterfall . i'd fought those tears wen i ferst tink of her bcus i had tuh b strong , i had tuh hold it ol togetha . i force maself tuh . nw ,, tho , everi ounce of strength was gone n ol tat left was a big pool of sobbing . i din feel better . each sob din release pain , it brought more of it . more of e tings i'd hidden frm ,, had pushed , had pushed awae , pushed dwn , pushed behind me . ive jush had tuh force maself tuh b strong . i love her styl & i wil wait fer you . ily (rmbr hw i did those on eur face.) sobss . imy .

aku yanti .

2008-05-08T11:35:00.002+08:00

*Inginku bahagiakan dirimu setiap saat bersamaku .. Aku kan slalu ada di dekatmu .. Aku kan slalu menemani harimu .. Kau harus tau betapa aku mencintaimu .* loved'ney .

2008-05-08T10:57:00.003+08:00

haysh . evritin has cum tuh e end nw . ol e werds ,, kisses ,, e love we mke r jush tuh cmfort me . sobss . why dear why .. even eu r cnfused wit eur ownself why mus eu do tysh tuh me .. i feel lyk im jush hayshh . i knw if ppl kip sayin if i nik cm passing2 ,, bt i hve maself respect tho . eu give me hope & strength .. eu told me if eu love me tuhh .. eu told me if ders a chance eu wanna patch tings up .. eu told me if im nort ss .. eu told me if i nik tk bertepuk sbelah tgn .. eu treat me jush lyk e past .. bt nw its ol gone . sobs . why ive tuh go thru ol tysh alone . its ol act a false hope & i shall put a fake smile tuh eu .. cus i RESPECT eur decision dear . eu wanted us tuh b frens .. fine ,, i try tuh accept it .. lyk i sae mayb tysh is e 'balasan fer me .. wat ive done tuh eu .. bt tynk bck dear .. ol e heartaches bout eu n otha gerls is styl der .. i left eu ,, cus im hurt .. & i tauu silap i ,, i tk perlu uat eu rase sunyi .. bt dear ,, tats hw i feel .. i feel soo lonely wen eu found yana .. bt ma loneliness eu nvr care less bout it . sobss . i feel e ache soo much til i started bhavin soo ego . i knw its ma fault .. bt wen im wit ayiid nor jack i styl prove tuh em if i styl nyds eu . bt eu thot i left eu ol alone & nvr tynks of eu .. eu r wrong in judging me . sobss . im dissappointed wit eu . dey knw if i styl cun gt over eu .. den tat mondae . i cun hide anitin nimore & i left jack .. nort only cus of eu bt its cus of hr att tuhh . den we myt bck . i was soo HAPPY . no one understnd hw i feel at tat moment .. & we myt again tat tues .. bt tuh pun eu lyn i after keka aleq . hw wil i feel ? sobss . i selak & i ton wit eu at alynn hse . we mke love . i cried .. cus why .. cus i myshh e old us alot . sobss . & i rili love eu . after tat dae we olmost spend e whole wk togetha ,, & i feel soo secure .. i feel as if lyk i jush wanted tuh b by eur side everi min ,, bt ma hopes r gone .. tat sat ,, everitin brks ma hart .. i am jealous . saket aty eu .. saket aty .. bt i knw i shudnt hve tuh .. ive no rights . hayshh . & nw eu r letting everitin go .. eu wanna enjoy life . eu r enjoying it dear ,, bt nort me .. eu cnn mve on nw .. bt nort me . sobss . lau dari ulu i lei move on i tkkn caryk eu aleq . bt its okey ,, i respect eu .. i cun force eu tuh love me nor hve a rel wit me .. cus tuh sumerh tkkn jdy keikhlasan dari aty eu .. soo wats fer ?! sobs . i wil wait fer eu as long as hw deep ma love fer eu is . i nvr regretted knwin eu .. 090806 . i nvr regreted evritin thru out 190806 .. even hw hard we've gone thru . sobss . i will wait fer eu .. ily . sobss . (padan mukerh ko dian.) *haish! see...u did dat to her , jack n ayid kan...nw it bounces back to u!* sobss !! & nw eu r bein aloofness )):

2008-05-05T12:01:00.002+08:00

ooh my . sobss . why mus i feel ol tysh alone .. eu comfort me ,, eu gave me eur love bck ,, eu spend a dae wit me & hd ol those kisses n love bck .. bt nw ,, eur hart simply fades away .. sobss .. i cnn jush feels it . mex ,, naperh cm gnie .. sobss . im .. hayshh .. out of werds .. ily .

2008-05-03T12:27:00.001+08:00

HOW I WISH ..i was soo stuupid ..

sobss .

i nid eu nw ..

i love eu lots dear ..

i regret everitin in e past ..

sobss .

loved'yot .

imy . ily .

*190806*

2008-05-03T12:11:00.002+08:00

dey look sweet togetha aint dey ?? .. yeaahh yeaahh .. & i noe if eu do heart hr lots .. eu r jealous wen she tok/cntcted wit otha guis .. everi expressions , feelings , reactions eu r tuhwards hr meant everitin .. its shows everitin .. it proves everitin hw much eu love hr . tats why i kept askin eu ,, bt eu tynk diffly .. den watt bout ma hart ?? feelings ?? .. e love we mke bck (29april08) sobss .. im jush out of werds .. i love eu dear .. its soo strong ryte nw . im sorry .. bt i rili wanna noe watts in eur hart .. jush tat . i wanna noe dear . i dun wish if in eur hart eur cnfused bout both of us .. if eu choose hr ,, i dun mind bout it .. i respect it & i knw eu cnn mve on ..i nanak ler nan i eu luahkn laen .. bt wit hr eu luahkn laen .. i knw dear ,, i knw .. bt yet ,, i jush hd tuh kip it alone .. sobss . i love eu lots .. i thot after i realised everitin ,, ders a chance fer me .. bt ,, i feel lyk as if nie 'balasan' dari eu .. she love eu . alot . jush tat she has alot of guis fren .. she cnn change if she rili loves eu ryte ? .. i rili wanna b wit eu bck lyk e past .. bt tings mkes me feel soo dwn & look dwn at ma ownself .. i noe im nt perfect fer eu .. n we wun look sweet togetha .. i noe if i dun noe hw tuh tke cre of eur heart bt i wanna eu tuh noe if e love i hd fer eu is soo true nw . i do . soo strong . its jush lyk aru2 kiter knal 090806 .. sobss . bt i dun noe hw tuh express it out .. i jush wish n hope 1 dae eu understnds wats in ma heart .. n i do understnd eu dear .. iloveyou .. lots . sobss .. (i cun stop cryin nw ..)

2008-05-03T01:24:00.002+08:00

din went out yest .. ok . settle evritin wit mmy yest .. & we r fine bck .. bt i noe it wun last long .. soo yaar .. yest she came tuh ma hse & yaar .. hayshh .. hw i wish everitins fine & were jush lyk e past .. i rili heart hr .. soo arnd 6+ she went off & i send hr tuh e bus stop .. imyshh hr ,, eventho we jush met .. haha . den went bck hme & watch tv .. arnd 8+ went off tuh pick cha2 frm nenek hse & headed tuh clementi tuh fetch mmy .. off tuh mr teh tarik . sigh . tmr sat .. ESP . hahaha . tk abes2 .. & im soo stress up cus im nt sure watt tuh wear .. lyk durh .. hurhurhur . )): everione seems tuh dress up & wear noicely bt i'l b left out by den .. & hayshh i kip tynkin if she's betta off wit 'ke** cus both of em suits togetha .. keka noes hw tuh doll hrself & shes pretty .. I AM JEALOUS . of cus . pmpn tkd otak jerh tk jeles .. yg kutok2 tuhh sbenarnyerh jeles ukan aperh .. hehe . tol perh .. hehs . was chatting wit hr ryte nw .. ayoo . im stress lurh sheyy .. PFFT !!

2008-04-29T08:14:00.002+08:00

everitin jush seems soo stress up fer me .. sobss . eu ,, i noe im nutin tuh eu .. & we've nutin in status .. bt i dun noe why .. & i jush wanna noe e truth if do eu love hr or nt .. eu noe evriitin bout ma feelings cus ive let it out tuh eu .. im afraid .. im sorry .. why is ol tysh happening tuh me ..i wanna selak .damn it . rili i wanna selak i cun tke ol tysh further mre .. sobss .

2008-04-29T07:51:00.002+08:00

okie .everitin ends .im soo relieve .ive let out evritin tuh mex ,, n yaar she understnds it .. hopefully .. i rili heart her .. i cun denied it nimore or lie tuh maself AGAIN. it hurts me . LOTS . i jush wann eu tuh knoe mex ,, if eu r e one i nid most .. i regret everitin in past .. im sorry .. i knoe its hard fer eu nw ,, im sorry tuh mke eu go thru ol tysh .. bt i dun mean anitin .. i jush love eu .. sobs . damn it . im STRESS . mmy is MAD , totally MAD ! she jush dun understnd me & i DUN understnd hr at ol . i feel lyk runnin awae frm hme .. leavin evritin .. sobss .im no longer usin ani phones nw .. yaar she took it . (lyk durh) im soo stress up .. sobss . hw i wish .. im totally dwn ryte nw .. )): goin tuh alynn hse todae .. & i feel lyk i wanna ton sumwher .. mayb i cud ask alynn .. damn it .i jush hate everitin ..sobss ...